The Tear

The Tear

The single tear that caresses my cheek
And drops lightly to the ground
Yet the agony of my heart it doesn't relieve

As I barely struggle to my feet
Awaking from a timeless stupour
Which I never believed would end
As close to death I could possibly feel
All I desire is to cry
To let my emotions pour out
The torrential rain that sweeps aside the dry earth
Like it never did exist

If I could only cry and erase the past
Wake up like a new man
Alive in all my senses
Believing that I could achieve anythig
Having banished all my ghosts of self-doubt and pity.

But from the disease-infested ruined innards of my soul
Only a single tear escapes
As if to mock the miles that separate me from her
And the vastness of the abyss confronting me
Which I am too scared to cross

As I silently wipe it away
Some half-baked truths do I realise
I cannot cry because
I do not repent for any of my sins
Save one that makes me thus weep.

Apathy

Apathy

How do I capture the listlessness of my soul?
Or the langour of my heart
Or the apathy that my mind surrounds itself in
I must not belong here
Is it a supreme sense of self-contempt
Is it a frustrated attempt to reach out to anyone who offers sympathy?
Or is it just a craving for pain and sadness
For my sake I hope I discover this on my own

A single tear runs down my cheek
And trickles down unassisted to the ground
As I contemplate the shambles that lie all around me
The harsh breeze rustles past my hair
Hurting my face
As slowly my misty eyes to fail to see the ruins
Utter silence surrounds me
I long to hear any human voice
Or a shoulder to lean upon
Or one friendly squeeze of my arm
Or a single word uttered in sympathy
Is it the end of the road for me?
What would I not give for a single companion on this unfriendly path
Alas I shall never know
I shrug my shoulders and move on
Only time shall tell if I get anywhere

Prometheus

Prometheus

Fire he stole for all of mankind
The gift of life he did deliver unto them
Defied did he all the Gods
Consumed in his passion for the greater good
In the self-consuming obsession with his own power
Mocked did he even the most powerful

So what did he desire?
Everlasting fame
The urge to hear that he was the noblest
Or purely the warmth that seeps through your heart
When you believe you have been truly selfless

But dearly did he pay for his apparent selflessness
Crucified was he at the altar of self-appointed morality
Did the Gods care about the greater good
Their rage at being affronted by a mere mortal
Did but make them forget their duty to mankind
Pride doth rule us all
Even the custodians of honour and absolute power

And did mankind spring to the aid of their ultimate champion?
Alone he lay chained to the rocks
Writhing in agony when his very flesh was ripped off him
Regenerated every night so that the pain could last
Hell would but last forever

What flashed through his mind in these moments of intolerable pain?
Regret did he his choices?
Mourn did he mankind's ultimate betrayal?

Flinch I would not even for a second from my goal
If I could do it again
But a small price pain is
For the change that I have heraldedMy strong heart within will never let me cry

Have you ever?

Have you ever?

Have you ever felt the urge to weep?
And smiled the next moment
Because a fair presence crossed your path

Have you ever woken up
With a wonderful breeze brushing past your face
Bathed in glorious sunshine your whole self is
And the whole world around infused in joyful song

Have you ever felt the warmth seeping throughout your body
From the core of your heart
Euphoria which you could never have known about

Have you ever felt the need to become a better person
To search within yourself and discover your truth
The overpowering desire to prove that you are worthy of her
And yet be appreciated for who you are
And not what you want to be.

Have you ever traveled the silent road
Trembling with every step
Dragging yourself as if you are Atlas himself
While she lightly danced beside you.

Have you ever sunk to the depths of a bottomless abyss
Surrounded by ruin and devastation
Ripped apart with guilt and self-pity
And yet dared to climb out of your misery
Because you heard a single voice call out to you

Have you ever ignored the deepest sorrow you could have come across?
Or treasure the tiniest ray of hope you could have seen
When her palm rests lightly on yours
Have you ever experienced love?

The Mystery

How can someone's smile be so tranquil and sad at the same time?
As if struggling with some inner devil
Trying to vanquish some monster from her past
As she tries to discover her true emotions

Her placid gaze can keep you transfixed
Her voice of reason can enthuse you
Dismissing all your pointless thoughts
Strengthening you
Ready to face anything
Yet the gravity in her gaze can reduce you to a blubbering idiot
Hypnotised by her charm
By her wild locks of hair

An air of mystery surrounds her
Shrouding her every move, her very word
As innocent as a child
And yet as cold and pragmatic an an adult
She's beautiful and yet she doesn't know it

As I sit back trying to unravel this beautiful bundle of contradictions
Only a few fleeting a answers cross my mind
Maybe I am not worthy enough to discover them
Maybe only she can understand herself
But its a small price to pay
For getting to stare into those eyes

The Journey

Long years ago
A dream possessed me
And try as hard as I could
The obsession did not forsake me
Till at last consumed it my did my very fibre

Begun a perilous journey I had
Through choppy waters and waves of wrath
Far from many a familiar face
My past a forgotten reality

Many were the tears I shed
Contemplated as I did the forbidden grail
And as I lay enclosed in my own world
Block I could not the sound of the waves
As they tried to batter down my retreat

Alone and friendless as I lay
Seeking a light that scarcely beckoned me
It dawned upon me
How I had turned my back on my former self

When at last the deck I strode upon
To breathe the winds of change that swept around me
And astounded was I by the sights around me
When in a flash of lightening it all dawned

Meaningless my dream was
If waited it did outside my very doorstep
Rob me it would of everything to live for
For in winning what I always did dream of
Only emptiness would it earn me

But in the journey to earn it
A new man it would make of me